40 days

This Friday, November 8, it was 40 days since our dear grandmother left us.

Curiously, 40 days has a symbolic significance in all spiritual traditions. 40 is all about transformation and renewal, and during these days the soul would go through a transition and a spiritual transformation. I am sure grandma got there, as she was quite a spiritual character.

In any case, it took me 40 days to actually realise that she left, to meditate on it and comprehend it. During this time, she visited me once in a dream and it was so gentle and kind...

My grandmother likes to tell me, “Mish, stop rushing, take your time, lean on a sofa, close your eyes, dream, contemplate, you do not have to do things all the time”. These words always surprised me back at those days, as everything around me was all about the opposite: “quickly, learn, apply, get in the stream or it will be too late”. But now I understand better my grandmother and try to follow her beautiful advice.

Her spirituality and wisdom are of very special kind. They are not separated from everyday life, from the smallest of things. They are not only reserved for art, ballet or praying. She insists that everything shall be done with beauty, elegance and come from the soul.

My grandma gave me my name and I feel that it creates a special connection with her. Giving name is a mystical act.

“I am the most important woman in your life”, she likes to say to me and it is true.